I Dunno Wat I Wan!! DAMN!!

For me,this word,DAMN is considered rude d...in this case,i use this word coz i m really really really angry!! DAMN H**...Keep scolding me with those dirty words...Do u ever noe tht i hate dirty words?Especially when the words come out form ur dirty mouth...U r such a low standard ppl coz u had choosen to speak those dirty words..U r so CHEAP!! I m really sad...i wanna cry...and the tears like cant listen to me..i cant control..my tears...i cried bcoz of these??OMG!! Hueyping..Big Girl Dun Cry!!U ask me to think myself wat i wan to study..Okay..i think...i really think...i wan to b an air stewardess..then i tell u..DAMN U!!u started opposing me..say these n tht..then wat for u ask me to think?? U better tell me wat u wan me to be then i jus go for it...u happy then i happy lo,no need to be scolded at least v those dirty words..wat else i can do at home(u sk me this question)then i tell u la..i wan to online n chat,i like to sms..i dun care all hsework..bla bla...do u really think i m tht kind of person?i gotta finish my hsework then only can on my pc o else i hv to listen to those dirty words again..gotta see ur face colour 1st o else...i hate u...okay la,nw my dream really gone...say BYE BYE to air stewardess d...i m sad but i dunno hw to tell my bf..i dun wan him to be sad v me..i keep all deep inside my heart..i dun wan him to noe my mum characteristic..she is such a good actor...act good action in front of all the ppl n scold me v dirty words at behind..haizz..really disappointed v my life...if i can re-choose again,i would rather i never live in this world......